YAY!

I am so very excited! Today is my first recital as a dance teacher! Wow, never thought today would be here! My little girls have worked so hard, and they are so stinking cute... I have learned a few things while working at ADA. But I think the most important lesson I've learned; is that you can't lead if you don't know what your leading. And you can't gain respect through fear. I hope that I have been a positive influence on these little spirits! So wish us luck, and I hope that today goes smooth!

The house that built me

So As some of you may know MM and I will be adding a little person to our family! YAY! Were so very excited! BUT my hormones are going CRAZY! Ahh So I thought I would blog about my latest cry baby session.

There is a song by Miranda Lambert called "The House That Built Me". It is a touching timeless song that makes me cry every single time I hear it! It expresses alot of the feelings I have towards a place called "Monster Acres". This was where home has been for me since I was born. It was the home that my Poohs Bear and grandmother built and lived in for 30 years! This was where we spent most holidays, and summer vacations. There isn't a single square foot of that place that doesn't hold some sort of memory for me. My hand prints are in almost every single slab of cement. Right out side the barn the cement has a dark black spot on it from where I blew up my Pooh's motorcycle... recruit 2 helped with that one. But Like I said every single area has some sort of precious memory. And I was reminded of all of them today while I listened to that song...

There are also a lot of sad memories there too. It was the place where my Poohs Bear passed away. And where my Grandmother got sick. Naturally after his passing the home and property was sold to another family, it just got to be too much for my grandmother to take care of by herself.

But still I look at that home that isn't filled with my families treasures, and miss the comfort those walls brought to my life. I miss pulling up to the front gate after a long car ride and being allowed to unbuckle for the ride up the lane to the house. It was like entering a magical kingdom! I also miss walking out to my Poohs Bears office and going to the "surprise box". I miss having all my family gathered around the country style kitchen talking and eating. I miss going out to the pasture and exploring with my brother (recruit 2). I miss leaving to go back to whatever part of the world I live in at the time, and honking the horn and waving while we drove down the lane and out of the gate. But most of all I miss my Poohs Bear, and it kills me to know that my little brothers and cousins wont know him in this life. Its hard because I always pictured him being at my graduation, wedding, and meeting his great grand baby! But just like sailing the house, things change.

I am so grateful for the Gospel because even though he isn't here any longer. I will meet him again! I am grateful for the house that built me. But really the house is just wood and nails. I am grateful for the people that built me. I was recently told that "I was losing my support system". But I want to publicly say that as long as I have my family, and the Gospel I am well supported. They are the beams, and the nails, and the foundation to the amazing house that built me!

Anyways thought I would share what is going on in my crazy pregnant Brain. Thanks for reading!
This is some of the Redwine Crew (minus a most of my family)

This is a picture of My sister and younger cousin at my bridal lunchon

This is a picture of my family at my wedding (doesn't my daddy look handsome!)

Horse Rescue Project.

So I have been doing a lot of research on different funding that I can access for starting a horse rescue/ horse rehabilitation center. Its turning out to be a ton of work, work that I never knew could be so emotionally draining. I haven't really expressed to anyone the deep connection to this project I have. I finally feel like I am doing something that is worth meaning, more meaning that pointing my toe, and learning how to make dogs do tricks.

I started thinking about doing something like this for awhile, but due to the wedding, school, and all the other craziness in my life I put it into the back of my mind. But now it is more apparent than ever that THIS is my calling. That THIS is what Heavenly Father wants me to explore. I saw a horse the other day, that was in a 10x20 box, that was littered with trash and muck. There was so much muck in that small pin that the poor animal was standing in a half foot of poo, and dirt. So I rolled down my window and click at the beast and naturally he would have moved some... But he just stood there, so I am assuming that there is something wrong with its hooves. We filed a report to the humane shelter, and I hope they went a checked it out. But more than likly they just sent them a letter, or gave them a call. Instead of going and checking it out.

But I want to do more. I want to do more! I WANT TO DO MORE!!! I will do more. There is so much out there to help me do this. But for now I will be sifting through the grants that are out there, and trying to write up a proposal to send to the local political leaders. I need to get people on my side. So to whomever reads this, if you have any tips for me, or encouraging words.. please share! I am in over my head, but I KNOW this is what I am supposed to do!

Really Good day!

So I have never understood the awesome time called tax return time! It brings me great joy to say that were getting back a little more than we expected! YAY! We get to pay off MM's truck, and buy some fun stuff for our new house! I am so grateful for the hard working man MM is! He is really a diamond in my life! I don't know what I would do with out him! When I look back on all the hard times we had during our engagement, and all the hurtful words that were said. I know I came out on the bright side, because every night I get to cuddle up to a MM and know how wonderful life is! So YAY for having an awesome morning, and YAY for having an even better marriage!

The first spring day!

Whooo Hoooo Its finally March. I have wanted to see springs face for a really long time. In Texas this means; no more cold, wet, bleak days! There is going to be nothing but sunny warm days! Days in which I can ride my Horse, work in the yard, and leave my houses windows wide open! If you can't tell, I am so very excited! Spring just makes me feel happy, new life is starting and a new sun is shining!

Most of all, I have been in deep thought the last couple of days! And I want to move on, the hurt of yesteryear is only giving me wrinkles. So this is the spring that I take off the chains that hold me captive to the political world of a small town. So that I can fully live my life here in this beautiful place, with my amazing man, and with awesome friends!



This is me stating my true Independence! Happy spring everyone!

What a wonderful day.

Two Sundays ago we had a wonderfully sunny day! It was about 70 degrees, and very sunny with a slight breeze! So MM and I took our two babies for a walk around the river that runs through our town!



It was so much fun! I got to spend time with MM, and the dogs were totally loving chasing squirrels, and Red even dipped his two front feet in the river. He really didn't like the chill of the 50 degree water, so needless to say, we didn't take home and wet dogs :D



So I guess there really isn't any point to this blog, other than how grateful I am for the blessings I have in my life! For the family I have, and for the family MM and I get to create! I am also really grateful for my Heavenly Father, and for the sun and the moon! I can't wait till I get to thank him face to face! I am grateful for the sacrifice Jesus Christ gave to us, all because he loved us! I am grateful for all the blessing of knowledge I have been given!

For right now...

As of right now I am lounging around on a fluffy couch, because I busted my back... again! And it is all due to the fact I like, no let me rephrase this, I LOVE donuts!

It might sound crazy, but right next to my little dance studio is the most AMAZING donut shop in the whole world! And every day that I work there, I must go get a twisted chocolate donut! At first it started off as just one. Now its up to four... FOUR!!!!



All I can think of is WOW huge whale! I didn't officially find myself huge, until Monday night. I thought "oh it would be so much fun to take some extra dance classes". I didn't even get through the first warm up with out feeling like I was going to pass out... and at that moment I knew i was an official whale.



So I pushed through the last hour class and about half way through I was feeling, like yah "I'm kickin some real dancer butt!" But by the time I got to my house (about an hour away from the dance studio) I couldn't even get out of my very low to the ground cruiser. Needless to say MM rubbed me down and gave me a Tylenol PM... and I passed out until 11 am, the next morning!

Well now I am still in pain, sitting on the couch... MM is about to carry me to bed! goodnight all!